Just over a year ago I found myself answering the same life question I'm sure most of us hear: what do you plan to do next? I had rehearsed my answer several times before. For some time I had planned to continue my education when my little one (or little ones) was (were) off to school, moved out, married, etc., when my role as a stay-at-home mom was no longer necessary and I could afford to leave my child (children). I had the same disbelief at the possibility of being a mom and a student as I saw in others. I did not even consider it. There was no possibility.
And then it clicked mid-conversation. My perspective changed completely. Somehow I suddenly recognized the possibility as I responded to the life question with a complete change in attitude from my rehearsed response. It might actually work.
I recognized immediately that this realization was not my own. I had not done anything that led to this answer. I knew it was my Heavenly Father's guidance. And then I knew that He wanted me to finish my schooling.
Along with the change of perspective came no answer as to how it could happen. I only knew it was possible. It still took some time and trial to show us how it was possible. We had to figure some things out ourselves. But because I knew Heavenly Father wanted me to finish my education, I also knew He would make it possible for us. And not only did He make it possible, He made it easier than we could have imagined.
Somehow we did not have to take out loans. Somehow we did not have to use child care services. Somehow I was able to write essays with background distractions and the little one's interruptions, even when all I wanted to do was sleep. And somehow I was able to graduate within a year, aligning perfectly with other aspects of our lives. All of these "somehows" are proof to me that Heavenly Father exists and that He has a plan for us. There are simply too many "somehows" to discount them. These opportunities would not have been possible without Heavenly Father. Nothing ever falls perfectly into place by itself as it did for us. His hand is behind it all. And through Him anything is possible.
I don't have to worry about my future when I know Heavenly Father is guiding me. There is so much I still don't have the answers for, but it only takes a few steps into the unknown before realizing I'm headed in the right direction.
